Thursday, April 29, 2004

Tiring day for me againz... well i'm blogging in darkness nowz.. onli leave my com screen on n my table lamp.. well the table lamp i put it on the floor so it doen't seems so... bright.. i dunno why.. i kinda like.. night life... either night life or darkness... its kinda cool.. it makes me reflect upon what i have done today al tt shit... its kinda like a environment for me to think bout stuff all tt.. geez.. n of course listening to the music.. haha... its been awhile since i have on my mp3 n listen to the songs inside.. cox msn is down.. yup yup... its gona be may soon... tts cool.. i hope may passes real quick... cox i can't wait to go to school... erm poly.. geezx.. i have been slacking too long.. i dun think i know how to write properly... erm... to all readers there.. if anyone of u r free.. can help me find tattoos website which have nice tribate tattooz? i have fond one olready but its not actually concentrating on tribates... www.darksidetattoo.com... i forget where u have a 's' after tattoo notz... haha... erm.. i'm not gonna put it of cox.. i'm helping my brother to design a tribate tattoo tt he is gonna put on his back... yup yup.. have olready design one... he say its nice but it will be painful to do it cox it's kinda... big in those shading parts... erm... well its big larz.. haha... i need some idea.. i wanna put tattoo on my arm.. but i dun have license.. geez.. haha.. if my dad allow i will be jumping for joy.. wahaha...

yeah.. saturday gonna go out with clemence an fu n koon... go play pool... well i'm not exactly playing pool.. cox my fren who is working with me ask whether wanan play billiard with him... then i say anything lor.. so i'm gonna play billiard with him.. gonna train.. haha.. n let the three of them play pool... its good though cox whenever i play with them they like show a very black face... haha... dunno why? geez... actually i know why la.. i'm just too humble to say out.. haha.. no la.. jkjk.. (BHB) sucks...

Hurray i will be getting my salary tml... haha.. 300+ for half a month.. i calculate olready... geez.. gonna spend some of them on clothes, erm.. dunnno yet.. really gonan top up my closet liaoz.. my closet is like so empty... cox the clothes i have been wearing have lots of holes on it.. n one of m pants have a extra large hole.. hope my dad haven throw it.. cox i think i will be needing it for the FOC camp on june... hmm... my lips bleed a bit.. guess its too dry... well its not so obvious tt it makes ur whole mouth bloody but.. i can taste my blood... its.. salty yet a distinctive taste... all i can say is tt it taste nice... but then i'm not so crazy enough to cut myself jsut to taste it... after all i'm a sadistic person... what can u expet from a sadistic person? the answer is.. violence.. gore... n of cox.. blood... yum yum...

found tt disgusting? well.. i think nobody will truely understands me.. onli me myself understand wat i'm doing all tt shit... werid fren ritez? haha... well werid indeed... yeah have dinner with my brother n dad at coffee shop today.. fucking shit.. we play 8 bucks for a dish n its like i take some my bro take some n my dad take some n finish... they serve so little.. they r all so petty... bloody cheaters.. then i told my dad i wanan be a chef... as in house man.. i'm in charge of cooking washing clothes all tt stuff.. tt is after june perharps... i think i'm gonna go my grandma house n stay there for like one month to learn how to cook dishes n wash clothes? haha! my dad is not free to teach me tt shit.. well his too tired to teach those crappy stuff rite.. haha... seriously i wanna cook at home n give my brother n dad a nice meal when they reach home from work... it feel nice when ppl appreciate ur food... tt is when i know how to cook... haha! wait till june arrives then i will start doing it.. or i think i will start my training course maybe in the middle of may... visiting my aunt to learn cooking... know why? cox.. i think tt food can bring happiness to ppl... yeah.. think of it urself... when u eat ur mum's cooking n especially whenever she makes a new dish u have never seen her cooking b4 n it taste real good? u kinda feel happy or somehow peaceful cox the food is nice... haha.. bla bla bla.. i dunno wat i'm saying also.. nvm u understand... thumbs up for u... dun understand nvm... just know tt wanna learn cooking.. wahaha!

well i have reasons for doing tt though.. which i dun wanna say it out.. haha.. well most of u ppl knows why... issit? haha.. nvm..i miss secondary life... zzz... todae i blog a lot.. gonna get back in reality n get some sleep.. tml is gonna be a tiring day again.. cheers ppl.. nitez... fuckers...

Monday, April 26, 2004

tired... yeah fun... crap a lot with azmi during workz... haha come to think of it now... its sooooo crappy... wahaha... zzzz.. my frens asked me to go to sentosa on thurs.. i wonder if i sholud go or not... hmm should i go should i not go????

should i go back should i go back should i
i feel alone n tired
should i go back shouldi go back should i
i hope i won't forget you

haha.. suddenly tot of blink 182 song called asthenia... ba ba ba... hmm i think i need to think bout it... if i go i will be spending lots of money doing nth n canoe? swim? sun tan? hmm... i dun like to canoe cox kinda boring... sun tanning? nah hate the sun.... swim? sea water in singapore is so bloody dirty... somemore i the only guy.. so paiseh.... hmm.. dunno lehz... y they dun wanna organise it on weekends? perharps got a lot of ppl go la.. but then most of my frens can go on weekends lehz.. haiz... heck care la... dun think bout it baz...

damn it.. watching tv at 8+... then my bloody nose bleed... sianz... rush to the toilet n took photo of the blood wahaha... dad came home just in time.. saw me nose bleed was shock to death.. lolz... i was laughing n smiling... with blood in my mouth cox the blood went in my mouth.. look kinda cool sia my teeth were all bloody red!!! i'm such a sadistic guy... wahaha... tts all folks... i love blood... byez...

Saturday, April 24, 2004

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Hi fuckers! eading my blog again? sorry i dun have tag board so u all cannot give me comments on my blog.. wwwoooo... today never work.. cox was tired n went home late yesterday... clemence wanna buy a bday present for joanne n he was like looking for the present like... 1 hr like tt.. jx n me was kinda piss off... boring siaz... wa todae morning so sucky man.. woke up first thing LS... zzz now stomach still a bit pain... geez... todae watch the first episode of teenage mutant ninja turtles... wa super nice man... now watching jimmy neutron... haha.. oh ya gonan meet koon they all tonight n go dunno where lehz.. heez.. yeah ts all.. i wanna go eat breakfast liaoz.... hungry yeah stomach pain.. geezx.. bye fuckerz...

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

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Hey Fuck You! hurray... suckers... anyway azmi did not come to work today... piss me off a little bit.. but work was fun... of cox damn tiring... well everyday work was fun n tiring... cox got all those jokers working with me... all the word come out is chee bye ah... gay zai... si gou... bla bla bla.. wonderful words.. all imute to me.. but somehow funny the way malaysian scold vulgarities.. heez... anyway i wonder whose tt fuckers whu uses other ppl name on tagboard n write nonsense leh.. hmm anyway fuck face.. if u r reading this.. sorry i dun have a tag board... n... if u know me.. msg me k... find a place u n me n we 1 on 1.. no need tok much k.. i dun care u r my good fren or wat la... but even if u r my good fren..i will still wack.. so dun let me know who u r k... but if u wan 1 on 1 msg me k... hehe.. long time no fight perharps i will lose u... but even if i lose hor.. u still will go home with a broken nose k... we fight if blood never come out still continue hors... so if u got guts.. msg me.. or tag at anybody's tag board ur real name... then i go find u n jio u 1 on 1... fuck face... but if u dun wan admit who u r hor.. means u have sex with ur father n mother.. know y? cox u r a bastard, n gay... u fuck ur dad backside hole n ur mum chee bye.. if u gal.. u les with ur mum n suck ur father dick so he cum ur fucked up face... or i cum ur face till u die... pua chee bye... erm... let me call the person whu disturb other ppl's tag board fuck face k.. fuck face... burn in hellz...

Zora... wahaha... give me conments bout my christian name lehz,... heez.. Zora... waaha gonna use this name in poly.. meowz.... anyway i'm just crapping bout going oversea.. hope u all dun believe.. if u all believe u stupid la.. all i can say... heez... oh ya... dun go to satan link on my bloggie... well i put tt for nice oly.. cox got god must have satan wat.. or else god won;t exist... bla.. just crapping.... but seriously the link is bout satanism one... dun believe go click lor... u will go into church of satan.. n then bla bla bla... of cox... everything bout satanism is the opposite of christianity... satanism ask u to lust n sin... encourage homosexual all tt fucked up shit.... come to think of it... kinda disgusting... yeah.... fuck u satan! lolz...

today at work place heard some vulgar cantonese songs... by LMF... n dj tommy... a part of the band lmf too.. well i love lmf.. though i dun realli understand wat they r rapping but its nice... mc hotdog too... mc hotdog rapping is nice too... heez.. diferent from machi of cox.. mc hotdog rap bout fucked up taiwan life n fucked up taiwanese artist like jolin... etc la... heez... n a lot of other fucked up shit....

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

Erm... i think of a christian name for myself... Zora... lolz... Zora Yeo Kain ngan... zzzZZZzzz
my new blog.. hope u guys like it..... burn in hellz....
Lalala... i'm going to oversea n study... dunno y dad helped me... so goodbye all my frens... cya in... hmm like 2 or 3 years ba... i'm going to aussie to study... porperly different part of aussie from mike... lolz... anyway my msn is down.. hp the line cancel liaoz... can't contact me anymore... dun call my house cox i will be in my grandma house... n i will leave in round 2 or 3 days time... cya guys.. miss u all... hope u guys remember me...

Thursday, April 15, 2004

Well i found this on the near end of limpbizit newest album... which i borrowed from jx of course... i find it somehow interesting.. cox maybe it describes me or wat i dunno lol.. here goes.. it says...

Here's to the crazy ones

the misfits. the rebel. the troublemakers. the round pegs in the square holes. the ones who see things differently.
they're not fond of rules. and they have no respect for the status quo.
you can praise them, disagree with them, quote them, disbelieve them, glorify them or vilify them. about the only thing you can't do is ignore them.
because they change things. they invent. they imagine. they heal. they explore. they create. they unspire.
they push the human race forward.
maybe they have to be crazy.
how else can you stare at an empty canvas and see a work of art?
or sit in silence and hear a song that's never been written?
or gaze at a red planet and see a laboratory on wheels?
we make music for these kind of people. while some see them as crazy ones, we see genius.
because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones who do....

its real cool to see tt... tt actually ppl out there tt thinks like these... i suppose there r onli 1/8? or 1/10 of the whole human popluation out there thinks so... wahaha... i belongs to those ppl... cox ppl whu thinks like these have the most important... confidence... devotions... etc.. well i dunno my english sucks.. i can't think of any other word to describe them... haha..

life's started to get up n down these days... azmi have finally join me in working at my uncle factory.. after begging my dad.. we start work todae.. he n i are damn tired... exhausted... standing all day long... can't even sit.. well at least we have toilet breaks.. whu sets them? i do... water breaks... whu sets them? i do... hehe.. well i mean there's onli how many ppl working with the two of us.. like 2 or 3? n azmi n i are using a machine together so... nobody really cares.. i mean... if u know wat i m saying.. if dun then nvm.. haha... we have lunch outside.. kinda cool.. both of us didn't talk much... probably becox both of us were famish.. haha... after tt work work work... tea break was only 15 mintues... well at least we can sit for 15 mintues n rest our legs... heard from azmi tt his legs r kinda cramp.. well i dunno... i cut my thumb today when i try to use a knife to take out the pepsi light bottle wrapper... cox i dun like tt design tts why i wanna remove it.. was gonna hep azmi remove it when i cut my fingers.. well hack care la.. the most important thing is tt the bottle can contain water n we transfere them into our body.. lolx... came home at round 730... bought dinner from coffee shop... ate n watch fear factor... fish eye balls n worms... well i kinda feel like trying to eat those worms out.. i wanna find how it taste.. lolx... oh please... dun really bring a worm to me... later if its not edible... then i will haunt u... wahaha...friday saturday work.. n then sunday off... haha saturday maybe go youth alpha... then go jx or an fu house ton.. but i see if i'm tired nots.. work gonna finish at 4 on saturday... oh did i say how much i was paid? 27.50 bucks for a tiring day... well not worth it but at least better then rotting at home spending money... haiz.. can't sleep till 12+ liao... must wake up 650 like tt... so ust sleep early.. so i can rest my tired body n my soul.. lolx... been thinking too much lately... love, life, future, money, FOC camp, n many more i can't remember... n i think i'm a bad boy.. i didn;t thik much bout god... i have did some bad things again... haha... well satans going into my life... changing my thoughts.. y devotions to god... well... maybe using satan is a excuse.. i dunno.. i'm confuse.. i wonder if i'm gonna be a christian or a free thinker... n i think... when i die.. i will not go to hell... neither heaven.. i will be a trap soul... going no where... n if i have did a lot of bad things in my life.. perharps i maybe a demon... but maybe if i did those good things to write over all my bad things.. perharps... i will have the chance to get reincarnation... erm.. issit this word or wat.. i'm not sure.. haha... n maybe god will make me be in a christian family... bla... wat m i toking bout... the most importantly.. is tt i must have faith in myself n in god... yet... well by saying this n do not respond to it is useless.. so i'm gonna try to do it... starting from... today... or perharps tml... i'm tired.. lolz.. realli... been thinking too much liao.. brain's exhausted.. even if i did today it will be meaningless cox i will be thinking bout resting n not god.. haha...

Well when i just flip thru the bible... i think tt god have enlighten me... it says in 1 PETER 4:4 12-19
" Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted because the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you. If you suffer, it should not be as a murderer or thief or any other kind of criminal, or even as a mendler. However if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name. For it is time for judgment to begin with the family of God; and if it begins with us, what will the outcome be for those who do not obey the gospel of God? "

Well i think it is the first time i have blog these long.. i'm tired... gonna sleep... work tml... zZZZZZzz nitez... fuckerz...

Monday, April 12, 2004

i m so confuse rite now... i dun know whether i'm thinking too much or issit realli happening... haha... zzzzz... todae is a boring day in church... well nearly slept in the sermon... after tt... met up n went for cg meeting.. our cg was kidna like falling apart... addie was trying to patch us back altogehter.. i think we r giving him a hard time too... as he was the cg leader... cgl... make it short... well after everything was settle, went to have lunch.. ate chicken rice... then went to koon house there play soccer.. earn round 5-8 small blister home.. lucky now not so painz... went home after tt... got some sleep on the bus... dun know wat i dream bout... woke up.... went home n shit the first thing... was so nice... bath went online.. dad came home... had dinner... went downstair... hmm tok crap with my neighbours... actually tot monday i gonna go register... well actually it was tuesday... lucky i saw my calender.. n realise 13 was tuesday not monday.. or else.. it would be a wasted trip manz.. keke... well i'm feeling kind of like... depress, happy, sad, i dunno... i feel werid.. haha... is this wat they call mood swingz????? lolx... hope not... keke... cya all around guyz... take care.. tata

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same

All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, there's only you and me.

Tuesday, April 06, 2004

Well i hand in the resignation form liaoz... dun ask me why... hehe.. well actually is i'm sick n tired of this fucking job liao larz... the manager purposely make me work on days when i am not free n let me off when i'm free.... sianz man.. todae my last day liao l.. dn wanna go back there lehz.. though i will miss some of my staffs... like my supervisior.. god damn joker sia.. everytime talk crap with him at work n bout girls... haha... hurray i can slack at home lorz... can everytime meet azmi they all relac relac... better relac with them then going to work lorz... go there also jo bo onez... hehe... well i'm off to sleep liaoz... nitez..

oh ya.. i wonder when can my brother help me in my matriculation forms manz... n also.. when can u bring me to cheeky monkeys n have fun?!?!? ask me go learn c walking then dun wan bring mez... hehe.. still tell me soon.. when is ur soon?!?!?! lolz...

I never thought I'd,
I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest, who'd have known?
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all

I took my time,
I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed, To go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone

Monday, April 05, 2004

zzZZZzz... Work is so boring... when can i stop work i wish i can stop work now manz... i dun wanna work liaoz... sianz ar... go work also nth to do one.. stand there posing onli.. haiz... if i quit now... hmm got two months can slack.. then i think can go my father there work.. maybe todae go ask my supervisior can stop working or notz.. haha... sian manz.. i think after i get pay liao i dun wan work lehz.. hehe... a lot of things happen... dun wanna say it.. boring even to think bout it even if it is a happy thingy.. haha.. anyway why everybody keep telling me not to buy LM instead of Marbolo? 1 dollar diference.. tts wat they always say... haha... well ciggies taste the same to me so not much difference lorz.. haha


Yeah) I can drink a whole Henessey fifth
Some call that a problem but I call it a gift
Xzibit make the whole continent shift (hell yeah)
Invadin your territory in a blaze of glory
A soldier story, livin off nothin but instinct
Bitch niggaz continue to floss and lip-sync
And I'ma just continue to flow, while rockin the boat
Probably smoke three-hundred thousand dollars in dope
Don't make my desert eagle barrel touch the back of your throat
Always approach niggaz that's known for killin your folks
Be surprised who could turn around and bust on y'all
Catch your mother or your sister comin out of the mall
Bang holes through they coats and they Macy bags
No retaliation you basically runnin with fags
In these streets, you only good as your last transaction
Funny style, and these niggaz ain't laughin
Y'all got it all fucked up in zero-zero
Think life is a video for "Last Action Heroes"
Face the price you pay for the games you play
When it's all said and done at the end of the day, you gotta